Monday, October 29, 2012

Reflecting On Life

This isn't a post about gaming. I wish it was. If you want to read a post about gaming then move a long.

If you are a regular reader to my blog, then you probably know I lost my sister and my dad in the last couple of years. And for some reason, tonight, I miss them both more than usual, and it just hurts. 

Sometimes I think if I hadn't been there when my sister died at the hospital, that it wouldn't be so bad.  I don't know.  I also think that if I hadn't been the one to find my dad?  Again, I don't know.  Some images never, ever go away.  Ever.

The thing is, everybody loses people they care about. I know that. If you haven't, you will. And you know what? It just plain sucks. Nothing good about it.

The thing is, I try to think about the good things. I'm not sure what I've mentioned about my sister, but she had Cerebral Palsy, among other things. Despite what the PC crowd would say, she was handicapped. She couldn't walk, and was in a wheel chair. She was also blind. She couldn't take care of herself. Her vocabulary was limited.  I spent a lot of my time taking care of her.

And to tell you the truth she was amazing. If we were out in a store, and someone who she didn't know would say hello to her? I heard her response more than once. And you know what it usually was?

She would say... "I love you."

The first time I heard her say that? I was stunned. In fact, I was so surprised the first time, and said, "Melanie?" She rebuked me, and said... "Bubba, don't you do that!" She knew what she was doing. I am still in awe of her.   If everyone had her outlook on life?  Man, wouldn't the world be a great place?  Yeah, I miss her, and my dad, and I just have to go on.


  1. Wow, that's amazing, Thanks for sharing! I lost my dad in the last couple years and it's hard, but it get's better. Honor their memory every day by being the best person you can be, and that pain will turn into positive energy you will be putting back out in the world.
    Hang in there bro!