Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I Miss My Sister...

I know many of you may not understand,  I wish, I pray you never have to understand, but I know that won't be the case.  Everyone loses someone close to them.  Eventually.  It happens.  The Parable of the Mustard Seed.  If you don't know what that means, please Google it.

I don't know why tonight things are worse then normal.  Maybe it's me. It's been almost six months.  I know this is my gaming blog, and I try to keep things somewhat private.  I miss my sister.  If you've ever had a sledge hammer slammed into your chest you know how I feel.  I miss her so much.

I've mentioned her before on my blog, but never what happened.  I probably should, then maybe you would understand, but I'm tired.  She's gone, and left a void that can't be filled.

She was born when I was in the eighth grade.  Who do you think it was who gave her early morning feedings?  Two in the morning was early, but I didn't care.  I was helping my mom, and my sister.  I made sure the milk was the right temperature.  How many twelve years old do that?  Probably not many, and if you did I want to know.   Why? Because it's exceptional.

I miss my sister.  I miss her.  There's  a huge gaping wound, that I can't seem to patch up.  And it affects everything I do, everything...


  1. You really do have my sympathies.
    It gets easier, honest. Don't be afraid or hesitant to get some help or assistance, even if it's someone just cooking for you or something.

    Talk therapy, cognitive behavioral therapy, biofeedback. You're still alive, so you have every right to be happy.

    You'll have fun again, promise.

  2. I can't imagine what it must feel like to lose a close sibling. I do know that what you're describing isn't unusual. With any big loss like that you can almsot normal days and then it hits you again. Hang in there, and take care of yourself.

  3. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you find peace soon. I'm gonna call my sister today. Thank you for inspiring me to do that. Be well.

  4. Evening sir.

    I dont read your blog often, but I saw this post and it's probably more important than anything I've read on a blog in the last forever.

    Theres not much to say, really. Things are bad sometimes and usually they get better. The deep troughs make the peaks seem that much higher.

    Much love.

  5. Damn, I am so sorry for your loss. :(

  6. Thanks guys. I appreciate your comments. I just need to get busy, and move forward, which I have been trying to do, but keep running into obstacles. Oh well... fall down seven times, get up eight.

  7. Very sad to hear about your loss.